Friday, October 23, 2009

Grey Skies in search of Rainbows

It's Friday night and I'm all alone. Well, not exactly. I'm actually home with my lil one and my cat but minus my manfriend. It's interesting that lately I've been feeling such a sense of melancholy about my life. I'm not exactly sad but I know that my happy moments don't seem as numerous lately. I can't quite figure out why I'm in such a grey area. I mean I absolutely love my job. The kids are great and the other teachers are becoming more friendly. My money situation is greatly improving. I feel like I'm getting closer to accomplishing my fitness goals (even though it's much slower than I anticipated.) Manfriend and I are cruising along and my son is well...wonderful. So as I sit here typing this post and listening to my son sing in the bathtub, I can't help wonder when will I be back in color. Right now, I feel like someone in a black and white movie. Things are just blah. I need some color in my life. I can't imagine that I'm the only one who has ever felt like this so please share. What are some things you do to get your color back?

3 comments:

joanofalltrades said...

It seems like I've been in a rut for 2 years and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. When I feel "blah" I like to indulge in something I really love--food, a movie, a special gift for myself. I am at home alone too and if this post is in real time, I am calling you gurl!

Christie-The ChatterBox said...

I go through bouts of the "grays" at least a couple of times a month. I think it is just one of those ebbs and flows of life when you are just pondering your station in life. I think the "grays" are a reminder that even when things seem to be moving along, there is still something that you want. Not in a greedy way...in an unfulfilled way...make sense? Anyhoo...just my take on it.

from the desk of ....me said...

u both are so sweet...thanks for your encouraging words and solutions to greyness...i must admit that with each passing day i am feeling a little less grey.(hey that rhymes...maybe i should start saying couplets to help get my color back)